Hey everyone! So babsically I am about to have our 5th baby, yes you read that right, 5th!!!! Crazy train is rolling back in 😜 In all honesty though we are so excited, terrified and READY to have our baby boy in our arms!
Ever since we found out we were expecting, I have said I was going to journal all about it.....hahaha let's just say this post and the one before is all I did 🙄😬 life just is so busy! Even on days we stay home all day, moments of free time or energy to write don't come that frequent! ( between this paragraph and the next, 7 hours passes, see what I mean 😜)
All my pregnancies have been wonderful, fairly easy, and enjoyable!!! I mean as much as gaining 45-50lbs, and someone kicking, spinnning and stretching you from the inside out, can be!! Pregnancy number 5 hasn't been much different than the rest. A few more aches and pains, a bit more tired, and the stretching began right away:) I mean, I couldn't really expect anything else when this is my 5th pregnancy, one is bound to be harder than the other.
The beginning was like all the others. Tired and just feeling sick to my stomach. I think hormones get worse each time though, and fear comes in a destroys you more and more each time as well. That was a real struggle for shane and I, fear. We felt so blessed to have 4 amazing, health children, were we pushing our luck? We weren't planning for a 5th, we weren't exactly super super excited right at first(just being honest here) What if something goes wrong?? All the what ifs rolled right on in. The fears never really went away, they have been pushed to the side and not entertained, but man, fear in pregnancy is so, so real. In parenting also, but in pregnancy you have zero control of what is happening.... it's a humbling experience for sure. So yea, 1st trimester was typical, emotional and tired :)
2nd trimester I was already feeling so huge!!! Fifth baby belly pop is no joke!! I definitely got bigger quicker, and then would level out. I still had a bit of nausea to deal with, which was a bit different for me!! And we still hadn't decided where we would deliver the baby! I was visiting my old midwife and good friend for appointments, but that couldn't last too much longer as it was up in Saginaw about 2 hours away. We went back and forth on home birth or hospital birth, and at about 30 weeks decided to go with U.of.M midwives.
Finding out we were having another boy was really really exciting:) we had the ultra sound tech write it in a care, and then we got the kids, went to the garden we were married in, and opened it together!!!! And it was my goal to video tape the whole thing.....but I dropped the ball on that 😩 I rememeber hearing Owen say "boy" and seeing the word "boy" and just being so socked and excited!!!! I mean we all know it's either boy or girl, but the reveal is still so exciting!!! A 3rd boy! The boys, especially Henry, were beyond excited, and Ellanore tried to contain her disappointment she wouldn't be getting another sister ❤️ It was super special and I am so glad we found out with the kids :)
As far as baby movement, I started feeling baby move around week 27!! Crazy right?! I mean I felt him or his hiccups a few times but nothing crazy noticeable. And I would have to lay down, in a quiet room and really focus on feeling the movement. That would be a rare thing in this house!! After weeks 27/28, I could feel his rolls, kicks and bumps much more often:) The reason I didn't feel much movement until then is because my placenta is covering him right up, and absorbed most all the movements :) so, perfectly normal and that was the case with all my pregnancies except with Henry. I was really hoping we could feel baby boys movements early, I was so looking forward to the kids being able to feel it. The wait was still worth it, they love feeling him move(when they can sit still long enough to actually feel it)! Before they could actually feel his movement, they loved to just hug my belly, kiss it or say hi to the baby :) Little baby is moving and grooving in there now. Watching my belly wave and jump, is our favorite thing. The kids all guess where he is, what part they are feeling or where he will kick next time!! I will miss that. It all goes so fast and it's like you have amnesia when it's over, you just can't remember ever even feeling that.
Part of the reason I wanted to journal is because this is our last pregnancy. I know, y'all are laughing at that, and maybe I am wrong and it won't be, but with posey, I didn't prepare my heart for that to be my last pregnancy, last birth, last newborn.... all the last firsts. I didn't realize shane was actually serious that time when he said "last baby" 😂😂😂 he had said that before 🤣😂 But this time it's for real😬
And I know that you never will fully be prepared to be done, at least I don't think I willl be. I feel way more content this time around, and ok with being done. I have tried my humanly best to enjoy all of this, capture it, make memories it, and whatever else I think will help me be ready to move on to a new season :) I still have time to go, baby is not quite ready, but for sure is getting there!!! An exciting new adventure is about to start!
Also... this is what my phone looks like after owen or Henry takes my picture
And there were even more 😂🤣😂🤣
